Consuming thoughts weigh me down again,
Paper thin skin beckons me like a friend
To hurt it, to burn it, to rampage it whole,
Each little prick devours my soul.
Just let it win, just let it sink in,
Watch as my cheeks hollow with sin,
Just let me be, such a foolish belief
That it would be kind enough to let you breathe.
Exhale and exhale, the heaviness persists,
Eats away at my heart with a devil’s kiss,
Fire and hunger - more like cold and deceit,
I am not broken; I’m dead, I’m not me.
Waist getting thinner, life’s just a whisper,
See the choice that made you a sinner?
People are blind; if they see they don’t care,
Leave me to die, gasping for air.
My arms feel heavy, I feel tired and old,
The world decided my fate would have to be sold
To the devil to see what I had become
For him to play with me till my time is ready to come.
So he ravished my soul and kissed me goodbye,
I waited in panic, wishing for light,
Burn in hell? What’s worse than this?
I don’t think you see the world I live in.
Smoke filled lungs, charred and dark,
Haunted from breathing in lies from the start,
My own flesh and blood spat at me to see
How much I could take before I killed me.
I had a dream once; I’m still holding on tight,
It’s the only thing that lulls me to sleep at night,
When the voices begin, it’s time that they sing,
And whisk away all my fears and wait to see what it brings.
I’m living a life; petrified,
Scared sometimes to even go outside,
Chased by my past and kicked down by them,
Hold on; one day you’ll never see it again.